here we go.

I’ve given in and started a blog. I figure.. I have so much down time without school, and

since I haven’t been dancing as much as before because its summer..I might as well occupy myself with figuring out what exactly I wanna blog about. So the past about 2 months has been super hectic for me.

I couldn’t be more proud of how well the company did at BODYROCK.I love being a part of a family where we all have the same passion. I can’t wait to keep dancing. I couldn’t see my life without it.

--Now to the worst part of the San Diego trip… As many know, BODYROCK was also a really hard time for me. I figured out a lot about a person I truly loved. And he has become a person who I can say I truly hate. Just thinking about how much time I wasted trying to form some kind of relationship with a person who constantly betrayed me makes me so frustrated. It’s true… NO TRUST= NO RELATIONSHIP. But I’m so young.. and it was a good learning experience. A good learning experience that came along with a lot of tears and scars; but I will admit… I definitely learned a lot. I also learned a lot about myself and the kind of person that I actually am. When I’m in a relationship I constantly put the other person’s needs before mine. It seems like it’s a sweet thing, but sometimes it may not be the best thing to do. I really need to care about myself and my needs just as much as I care about the needs of those that I love and really do care about.

BODYROCK was bittersweet for me. I had all that drama going on with my ex but I also was lucky enough to find my escape. Jeka. I don’t need to write an essay on how much jeka means to me, because if you know me then you should already know. All I have to say is, I couldn’t be more thankful that she came into my life. She’s such a dope person, I couldn’t be luckier. So basically, babe. If ur reading this.. which u may not be.. just know as I said before I’m down for you. For everything you do like, don’t like, do, don’t do. Everything. All that you are. I’m down for you.

It’s almost my birthday and I can’t wait. I usually don’t look forward to birthdays just because ive never actually done anything special, but this year carlyne is throwing me a party. And I’m so excited!!

I leave for tahoe on august 2^nd and I come back on august 9^th for the company auditions. I cant wait to just get away for a week. Chill at the beach every day and just hang out with friends at night. Definitely always a time of the year that I look forward to.

Next topic.. SCHOOL. I’m going to be a student at University of San Francisco next year. I’m majoring in communications and im also going to minor in advertising.

At first I was definitely worried that I wouldn’t get the same college experience as most people because I’m going to be living at home, but I figure it’s just what you make of it.

I lost my phone 2 days ago.. at the dollar tree. Some shit like that WOULD happen to me. I’ve just realized I’m so careless with my belongings and I really need to start taking care of and appreciating the things that I have. But as an early birthday present my parents caved in and got me an iPhone. SO TIGHT. I’m so addicted to downloading apps and updating it and importing all of my pictures and music. Its horrible its taking up all my time. But that’s the fun part of getting a new phone.

I can’t wait for school and dance to start back up again. Yay for being busy. I miss it. It keeps me sane. I think way too much when I have down time.

Xox.